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Well it’s 12:20 a.m. and I’m up so I decided to check in and was so overwhelmed with the thank you’s and love and support for me and my family during this difficult time.  I’m listening to my mom’s favorite song: “I’ve been in the STORM too long!” Well she is at peace now and won’t have to worry about storms anymore.  THANK GOD!  Yes the tears are falling from my eyes’ (it’s my mom)and I am going to miss her so much.  I keep feeling like I could’ve done so much more for her; but I know in my heart I did good by my mom.

Thanks for all of your prayers I have a very tough week ahead just continue to keep me in your prayers. I flew home to PA today to get the rest of my things and was suppose to turn around and leave at 2:00 p.m. but I was too exhausted and I’ve caught a little cold so I need to take care of myself. I will be leaving this morning at 4:15 a.m. to go to the AIRPORT so I better go and get some sleep.

Thank you buddies for all of your love and support it means the world to me!  Angela

Well Brittany is finally walking again…THANK GOD!  She has a little limp but she is walking so physical therapy is doing great for her.  Heather was having some internal bleeding and wouldn’t go to the doctor so just pray for my 21 year old that knows everything other than that she is great!  Mom was not doing well when I left Ohio on Monday my brothers said she is moving her eyes now…I trust GOD with her life and with everything that is happening.  We are taking her off the ventilator this weekend so pray for our family…If it is GOD’s will for her to leave then so be it he knows what is best for us all!  My mom’s heart is to the point of not repairable according to the doctor’s since she suffered a major heart attack on top of the aneurysm that burst and has been bleeding on her brain for 12 days now.  They cannot do any operations on her because of the severity of both her brain and heart.  I simply want my mom to be in peace and only GOD knows. 

I am strong because of the LORD and all my faith is in him.  So I am doing much better than with the girls accident everyone thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown.  In anycase I still need much prayer for my brothers and I because it is so hard because it is our mom.  And thanks a million to all my buddy slim family for your love and support it means the world to me.

I am flying out on Thursday night back to ohio and will let you guys know how everything goes.  Remember to STAY POSITIVE AND TRUST IN THE LORD!!!  Have a wonderful day everyone!

Well my mom had an anerysm bust in her head and a massive heart attack on Friday, July 25, 2008….she is stable but not doing too well! They are trying to drain the blood off of her brain by putting coils in her head!  She is not responding and they want to go back in her head…just pray for her because I don’t want to see my mom suffer.

I thank you all for your prayers and just continue to pray for me and my family!!

Okay I’m in the process of two moves; one at the office and one from the apartment back into my HOUSE!!! YEAH YEAH YEAH! That’s the first good news! Secondly (if that’s a word) Brittany loves Physical Therapy and is doing so great! YEAH YEAH YEAH!! Hubby and I are reconciling and going to counseling and I love our counselor he is a man and of course hubby can relate and loves him and we are doing great YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!

So things are turning around for me; I just have to keep trusting in GOD and know that he will make a way! I am happy to get my family back together which includes DUPREE lol (you know I miss the little guy) but I truly believe that things happen for a reason and seeing my girls being hit by a truck totally changed my outlook on things. I have to become a better person, a better mom, wife, sister, girlfriend, auntie you name it! I have to learn to accept the things I cannot change…you know the serenity prayer and just know that GOD does indeed have a plan for my life.  There are still alot of rocky roads ahead but I believe I’ve been through enough for now….lol saying that with a BIG SMILE!  Anyway I don’t have internet service because I had to disconnect it for my move.

Please just keep our family in your prayers and know that I sincerely thank all of you for your love and support.  And I am happy about another thing…I can finally exercise again. You never realize how restricted you are in an apartment. I missed my big house where me and SHAUN T (HIP HOP ABS) or Billy Blanks (TAE-BO) could scream at the top of our lungs…so I’ll be exercising again and getting myself together.

Have a great weekend if I don’t get on again; and remember no matter what you go through in life:POSITIVITY is the key and trust me I have been to hell and back it seems lol lol!

Well I had to take the girls to Physical Therapy this morning…they are still there hubby is going to pick them up.  I just feel so bad for Brittany she was hurt the worst and I still feel as if it should’ve been me. Sorry can’t stop thinking that because no mother wants to see her child suffer.  Anyway hubby and I had a huge fight last night partly due to me and my emotions and everything and finally I just cried and told him that I really missed him so much and I hate it when he has to leave! Well I am grateful that my girls are alive and as my brother said it could’ve been worse so I just have to shake these feelings and emotions out of my mind.

I’m doing good with the weight loss….lost another 2 pounds this morning so I’m real happy! Haven’t had a chance to exercise so I totally don’t feel like myself…I read Toni’s blog about feeling like an icecream cone; I feel like loose jello lol lol Anyway I know things will get better and I’m really trying to get better and not get emotional and let things bother me but buddies I am not doing a good job!

Please just keep me in your prayers and yes in spite of I am still STAYING POSITIVE!!! Also keep my buddy Wildflower (FLO) in your prayers; I talked with her last week and we all just need prayer at the moment thank you guys so very much!!!!

MOVIES!!!! Yes since I overslept and didn’t go to work I told Brittany today was the day for us to get out of the apartment! Granted we have only been out to go to Doctor’s appts. and since I have been off for 3 weeks and I was probably one out of a million that has never seen Sex and the City…Brittany bought me up to date watching the re-runs of the shows on TBS! I simply love it and I loved the movie!  It was cute and I really loved the part with Carrie talking to Miranda about forgiveness.

Got me thinking about all the mistakes I have made and my hubby and I. We have already apologized to each other and have been going to counseling since the girls accident. So things do happen for a reason and he is even relocating back to PA and we’re moving back into our home! I trust GOD to work out everything else!!!

Anyway I am babbling once again but I enjoyed my daughter and the movie and everything else.  Not one tear yesterday I’ve decided I can’t trust GOD and continue crying and moaping over this and that! I placed all my worries in his hand and I trust that he will do it for us!

So I definitely had a great day yesterday. I ate good a few snacks but confident I’ll pull a few pounds for my DIAMONDS this weekend! Remember stay POSITIVE in spite of what you are going through. As one of my buddies said to me in a booster: THIS TOO SHALL PASS!!!! Love you guys!!!

Well my girls need physical therapy 3 times a week for the next 4 weeks. I am just so exhausted! I dropped off hubby at Philly Airport at 4:00 a.m. this morning! I guess it’s not about me after all; so I have to do what I need to do and not complain about it right?  I am just so tired and really really really really just need a break!  Remember when I moved how i thought it would be so wonderful and great to be by myself and just have time for me. Well I guess that was not GOD’S plan for me and I am just so confused….

Anyway I was suppose to go to work today; but when I got back from the AIRPORT I was so exhausted I didn’t wake up until 11:00 a.m. oh well staying POSITIVE just real tired! Keep me in your prayers guys!

Last night was awful no matter what I couldn’t stop crying! Hubby was here to help with the girls and even stayed an extra day because we have to take them to the Ortho in a few minutes. I think I am just exhausted and i can’t let Brittany cry because she thinks it’s her fault.  It’s really no ones’ it’s just how i feel at times.

Anyway not to bore you guys I;m back on Southbeach Phase I to lose these pounds I gained and that made me sad as well! Anyway on my way to the doctor you guys stay POSITIVE through all my tears I am yet POSITIVE!  Just remember Angela and her family in your prayers.  Thank you guys so very much for putting up with me throughout my ordeal it has meant the world to me!!! Have a great day!

Well yeah for me…I’m getting back on track. The scale was -3 this morning so I venture off again towards ONEDERLAND! And this my dear friends without a shred of exercise I just stop eating junk lol

I have to take Brittany to the Surgeon this morning for her head injury; she got 14 stitches removed last week so all should go well.

Tomorrow they go back to the Orthopaedic doctor and then finally if all is well I can get out of this house and go back to work~~~~ whewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww I’m tired of being in the house but I had to be here to help my baby and I didn’t mind.  She is getting around quite well with her crutches so she’ll be fine and Debbie is only 5 minutes away if Britt needs something!

Great weekend and remember buddies I have great news for you all….waiting toshare!! Until then keep your head up STAY POSITIVE and remember there is no failure in trying!! Have a great day buddies!!!

Thanks for that blog KAMA it really helped me alot!  I just started crying and feeling real sad about all the bad decisions I have made in my life then I read KAMA blog. And you know it’s right our enemy (the devil, satan, lucifer) always is an accuser and makes us feel bad so I told him where to go and I feel much better!

It’s good to know that there are true believers here and we don’t have to be ashamed of our beliefs’ buddyslim a family of love for all!!! Have a wonderful day and stay POSITIVE!!!!!