UGH! I am just at my wits end….I’M SO TIRED BUDDIES!!!!!!
Can and will anything go right in my life. AJ and I flew to OHIO on Friday night we got in late after midnight and so I went to my brothers girlfriends picked up Brittanys car and headed to the townhouse. Of course someone was suppose to meet me there and didn’t show up so at 6:00 a.m. I just drove back to PA in tears….I have simply had enough buddies don’t know where I am going or what’s going on with my life…I AM JUST TIRED TIRED TIRED…I TOTALLY GIVE UP…. whatever happens happens sorry to be a downer on Monday morning but I’ve had it!
I was in the airport sitting next to this very nice lady and she could feel my pain. She gave me the book the Art of Happiness by his holiness the Dali Lama (spelling) but i started reading it yesterday and it’s sort of helping me a little bit. Then I get back to PA and this a!@#%%%% of a husband is there wrecking my nerve why doesn’t he just fall of the earth ugh….I just need PEACE & HAPPINESS plain and simple I’m so tired of all this nonsense. PLEASE JUST PRAY FOR ME I NEED IT SO BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH…………………..Sorry guys I;m not positive today but where is my positivity getting me absolutely no where i’m tired of being there for everyone and no one being there for me; tired of trying to help everyone and no one wants to help me ugh!!!!!! Have a great day and I sincerely apologize for this blog but it’s how I feel!!!!!
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No need to apologize sweet Angel. I would have been tired so long ago! you have every right to feel that way - it has been a very very very rough time for you. i will send out loads of hugs and good vibes your way, plus a little kick in the patootie for that husband of yours! his nerve, with you taking care of his child! glad you are reading the Dali Lama, peace is there some where and soon you will have it again. hugs and love! deb
ps - do you get some friendly support there in PA? Might be a good time to line up some times with a good friend!
I feel badly for you. My thoughts exactly — do you have support in PA? I feel you need someone close by to give you sisterhood support. Someone you can hang out with, talk to and who understands and knows what you are going through. A girlfriend who is in your corner 100%, whether she feels you are right or not. I wish I could help you in some way. But a prayer that things will get better for you (REAL SOON!).
Keep your head UP!
Don’t apologize for how you feel. You are a giver, plain and simple and sadly, people are not always going to reciprocate. It’s just the way it is, BUT what keeps you going, what makes you a survivor and what makes you truly unique is the fact that you never give up. Don’t allow the situations in your current life break your fighting spirit, you’re a strong, beautiful woman! If your DH didn’t know how to cherish the beauty you possess (inside and out), then I truly pity him. If you give up your positive attitude, he will win, others will win and even though this isn’t about winning and/or losing, it is about survival, it is about learning and about understanding. This is about becoming a better person, because like I said in my last comment to you, God promises to give us that which we can handle. I know you have it in you to come out on top. Hang in there my friend and never give up. Take a break if you must, but don’t give up. And no matter how tough it gets, it’s your generosity and positive spirit which makes you who you are—the beautiful strong woman we all know and love here on the site!
Angela (Angel) you are destined for wonderful things and soon you will be able to have a glimpse of them. He will take your hand and lead you out of the tunnel but first you must be willing to give it to Him. Give Him all your worries He knows what to do with them, we as humans, do not! Then a great weight will be lifted from your shoulders, He will be carrying it! With your newfound lightened spirit you will then be able to hold your head up high again and sprint back into a healthy, happy, fulfilling existence. Your husband will see your joy and he will wonder where it is coming from, that will really baffle him, cool! right? As a mother you must stay strong for your child. The bible is a very interesting read also filled with encouragement and love from you know WHO! Is Deborah still there for you. Have you looked in that mirror lately? You must so you can see what I do, a beautiful woman inside and out only looking forward, never back! You have not given up, you came here knowing you would find help. Never apologize for who you are when you choose to follow Him or for your feelings however negative any particular day, you are after all only human and we all share the same emotions from time to time make no mistake about that! Luv Ya! sista! I have an extra Hail! Mary! on order for you. Keep that head held high, your shoulders in command, your faith in your heart and the love and respect will come your way!
(((hug))) Never apologize for how you feel. I wish I could help. I really do and you have been in my prayers since I found out about your situation.
(((((((((Angela))))))))) You vent away, you need it and we are here for you. God has been waking me up everyday with you on my mind. I sure pray for you to have His peace and strength.
Im so sorry..I’ll be praying for you.
Oh my sweet sweet Angela. I’m here for you…we are all here for you. Sending big hugs your way…I’m sending you an e-mail. You can unload to me anytime. Love ya girlfriend.
hey buddy,
what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger—at least that’s what they keep telling me =) i prefer this one: if i don’t kill him, i win hahaha. i do feel your pain, my friend. please don’t give up. i’m glad you’re at least venting online. that’s what i have to do, too. i know that it says God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle but i do think sometimes He gives us more than we think we can handle so that we turn back to Him, instead of ourselves, for the strength to get through. please feel free to email me. i will send you my email. i wish i lived closer so i could ride up there with you. even though you could probably take him, i’d like to give him a swift kick in the pants, too =) i love you buddy. Lord, i just want to lift angela up to you right now and i ask that you comfort her and help her to feel Your Presence. lift her up into your loving arms and just hold her and love her. i am asking for peace in her life and someone for her to go to in this time of need. someone she can count on. please be with her and guide her through this time in her life. she needs you. i pray also that she seeks out your will for her life and grows closer to you. draw her nearer, Lord. i ask all of this in your precious holy name. amen.
Girl it is good to be positive but it perfectly okay to be upset. Youa re dealing with sooooo sooooooooooo much right now, that there are goign to be days it is just tooo overwhelming and that is what we are here for!!! WE ARE HERE FOR YOU!!!! We may not be able to reach out and hug you btu youa re in alot of hearts and prayers and if there was anything any of us could do all you need do is ask!!!! I will pray for peace for you today and everyday!!!!!
Prayers ARE being answered my friend. Do you think it was just coincidence that you were sitting next to that lady with that book in the airport, or that she was kind enough to give it to you?
This is going to sound harsh, and my gut instinct is telling me to keep my mouth shut, but I can’t stand to sit here and see a friend in pain, so I’m going to say something that I “hope” is taken to heart and not taken as criticism, k?
Yes, you are going through some tough stuff. Yes, your husband is nothing but a numero uno @ss, and it sucks dirty socks that you are having to deal with him. But sweetie, you are not the only person on this earth that is hurting from separation, divorce, financial problems, etc. LOTS of people are. I’ve been through EXACTLY what you are going through and I can empathize with every single emotion you are feeling. BUT… you WILL get through this. I can promise you that. I repeat YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS. Bad things happen to good people. Sometimes bad people seem to be on the winning end and it isn’t fair. And sometimes… life just happens and deals us a shitty hand. Is this when we just give up? Throw our hands up and say I can’t take this anymore. NO! This is when we grab hold of the only thing we truly know… and you know what I’m talking about. We cling to it for dear life and we do NOT let go. And we quit worrying about what OTHERS are doing or saying or acting or being. Because bottom line, we CANNOT control other people, places, or things. We can only control ourselves, our emotions, and work on what WE need to work on within us that needs work. We do that, and we cling to what we know, and we WILL survive. I CAN SIT HERE AND PROMISE YOU THAT ANGELA. And I don’t make promises lightly.
I love you more than life sweetie, and if I could take away your pain right this instant I would, but I can’t. I can only hug you and tell you from experience what I know.
HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGS,
Shan
Hey, what am I, chopped chicken liver!!!!!!