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Well first things first the scale was mean to me as in 4 lbs gained but it is okay because TAEBO will knock that off soon enough! Just finished unpacking the last two boxes this morning so no more boxes lol I simply hate clutter. Ready as I stated yesterday to begin my new journey!

I may have to get rid of my living room table so I can have room to exercise but it’s okay too!  I caught up on alot of buddies blogs and noticed there are alot of new people here so here’s my personal welcome to all newbies! Ready to get it going on with my diamonds and things are moving in the right direction.

I will finish putting up books and things tomorrow and then Monday it’s on 6:00 a.m. date with Billy Blanks! so guys have a wonderful weekend and so glad I can blog again at home! Everyone have a wonderful day and stay POSITIVE and welcome back TASHA missed you so much girl!!

It’s been a while since I blogged I surely hope I don’t bore you guys, but so much has transpired! I moved all weekend so you know how that was! Had a decent garage sale made over $2,000 dollars but mind you I sold half of my home, refrig, washer and dryer etc. but it was all good!!! My apartment is so nice and my master bedroom is huge as in 20 x 18 I love it it’s like I am in heaven!  My computer is up and running I’ve just been busy getting my apartment together I absolutely hate clutter.  I was able to bring my dining room table and my own stove - thank GOD they were both new and I didn’t want to part with them.  I will take pictures and post; it is so nice and so peaceful! I wake up with the birds chirping each morning!

My hubby has called me everyday almost every hour….please! Anyway not dwelling on anymore negativity and I can’t blame anyone for the choices I have made. I am in the process of writing a book (which I have been doing for years) but now it is coming full circle! Instead of being angry or bitter always remember the best revenge is SUCCESS! I will be successful in all my endeavors!

So as you all can see I have been oh so busy and my friend DEBBIE (not my little preggers) but my other Debbie helped me with the garage sale and everything and she has been awesome!  So has all of my buddies I love you guys so much and thank you for all your support these last few months…LORD knows I would not have made it!!! So to all my BUDDIES…I love you and appreciate you so very much!! Too many to name and I have to catch up with everyone and see what’s been going on!

I start back on my routine on Monday and officially rejoining my DIAMOND team and I’ll be up at 6:00 a.m. doing my TAEBO and I’m also going back to CURVES! Yeah my life is finally back to normal. With my exercise and writing my book I’ll be quite busy!  So everyone have a wonderful day and yes POSITIVITY is the way!!!!!

Day 2 of the new me and I tell you guys it started with the scale…didn’t lose and didn’t gain! Now that is simply awesome considering but just goes to show that through hard times and stress situations you don’t have to overeat! I was so thrilled!

Tomorrow is Dupree’s last day of school and I have to say good-bye! Now don’t get me wrong I will miss the little guy but I am thrilled to have my life back now…I can go back to CURVES travel when I want and get back to my exercise routine!

I am looking forward to my move and getting back on track and up to date with all of my buddies.  Thank you guys so much for your prayers of love and support it really helped!  Leaving work in a few to post flyers for my garage sale on Saturday and then off to clean up the house and do some laundry!

Having a wonderful day and so Positive!  Love you guys!!!

I’ve been reading this book by his holiness the Dalai Lama for three days and I must admit it is truly helping me! There are thoughts and points that he makes that are so general yet so real.  For instances he says that alot of our desires and pleasures cause us pain.  When making any decisions ask yourself this:  WILL IT MAKE ME HAPPY? I started doing a lot of self- evaluation of myself and have come to the conclusion that I have allowed things and people in my life which only caused me pain whether it be a friend, HUSBAND or significant other!! From this point on it’s all about Angela and helping to get Brittany through college.  Had another big blow with Dupree and his dad and guess what…I’m just so happy ;I could care less. He has 3 days left until he is gone and I am just focusing on my new life and new self!

From this point on I will evaluate what I allow into my space and what determines my happiness is ME!!! I wont allow situations or people to determine my happiness…I was thinking of a Whitney Houston song this morning…The Greatest Love of All…and it;s true the greatest love of all is inside of ME! I love myself and will not let anyone or anything knock me this is especially helpful in dealing with weight loss issues don’t allow people to make you feel a certain way…regardless of our struggles we are all beautiful people.  I;ve thought about my life these past 9 months which seemed like pure hell then I thought of something the Dalai Lama wrote compare your situation with others who have no food, no shelter undying suffering and you know what…my situation is not that bad at all.  YES we fall down; but guess what we can get back up and now buddies I am on my way to getting up and staying up.

Thank all of your for your support through these very trying times; and yes I’ll be moving this weekend getting my computer back up and running and getting back to the things that I love like exercising, listening to my music and just enjoying my best friend in the whole world …..ME, MYSELF & I….Have a great day buddies and MISS POSITIVITY has awakened only this time I am not going back to sleep.

Have a wonderful day and thanks so much for all of your support! It meant the world to me to have so many of you and yes DEBBIE has been awesome my friend here in PA she was my shoulders, my ears and a very good friend that has been so supportive and a big help to me!  Thanks Debbie, love you much!!!

Can and will anything go right in my life. AJ and I flew to OHIO on Friday night we got in late after midnight and so I went to my brothers girlfriends picked up Brittanys car and headed to the townhouse. Of course someone was suppose to meet me there and didn’t show up so at 6:00 a.m. I just drove back to PA in tears….I have simply had enough buddies don’t know where I am going or what’s going on with my life…I AM JUST TIRED TIRED TIRED…I TOTALLY GIVE UP…. whatever happens happens sorry to be a downer on Monday morning but I’ve had it!

I was in the airport sitting next to this very nice lady and she could feel my pain.  She gave me the book the Art of Happiness by his holiness the Dali Lama (spelling) but i started reading it yesterday and it’s sort of helping me a little bit. Then I get back to PA and this a!@#%%%% of a husband is there wrecking my nerve why doesn’t he just fall of the earth ugh….I just need PEACE & HAPPINESS plain and simple I’m so tired of all this nonsense. PLEASE JUST PRAY FOR ME I NEED IT SO BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGH…………………..Sorry guys I;m not positive today but where is my positivity getting me absolutely no where i’m tired of being there for everyone and no one being there for me; tired of trying to help everyone and no one wants to help me ugh!!!!!! Have a great day and I sincerely apologize for this blog but it’s how I feel!!!!!

Have you guys had one of them…you know where nothing goes right, you are so frustrated. Well I am having one of those.  Dupree was acting up this morning didn’t have his clothes ready, no milk for cereal. And we went to like 20 stores and he waits until this morning..ugh  Brittany flew in yesterday morning with AJ (my nephew) and that always makes me smile.  AJ and I are flying back to OHIO tonight. I’m going to see my family because it will be a while before I see them with my move and all but I’ll be back bright and early Monday morning.

I am just feeling like ugh today but I refuse to cry…it seems as if a river will fall out of me; but I am so tired of crying.  Anyway buddies please just continue to keep me in your prayers and know that I love and miss all of you dearly. I can’t wait to get moved get my computer up and running and start my life over for the better.

So on that note it’s keeping me POSITIVE and looking forward to my new life. Everyone have a great weekend and I’ll be able to talk a little this weekend and catch up on blogs!!!

Yeah I’ve been sort of out of whack but now it’s time to get back on track. Jeans were kinda snug yesterday even though I have only officially gained 2 lbs anyway me and Shaun T and Dupree will be doing HIP HOP ABS tonight! I feel much better today talked with a girlfriend, got my apartment and everything will work out for me in the end! Thinking of taking a short trip to Ohio this weekend since I can’t go next weekend!

Anyway stay POSITIVE buddies and thanks again to all of my wonderful buddies you are simply the best!!!!

Well i’m still in limbo today not as bad; had a real bad cry today at 5:00 a.m. with GOD! I haven’t prayed in so long it felt strange! I believe it really helped because I feel somewhat refreshed! I’m losing my home…don’t even want to get into it but I am alright. I thank so many of you for your comments yesterday and I know that GOD has a plan for me. Anyway trying to refocus and get back to myself. Heather and I went looking for apartments last week and the one that I wanted I got approved for still have to get the funds not only for the apartment but for Brittany’s tuition as well.

I started back to eating healthy was eating good but not my best.  Will exercise this evening haven’t in so long I’m afraid a spiderweb might come out of me lol lol anyway still very positive in spite of everything and just to let you guys know that I love you and thank you so much for your prayers and support. I am only on buddyslim at work and I do answer my buddies blogs.  So if you don’t see me it’s not that I am ignoring anyone (I’m not like that…SMILE) I just dont have connection at home anymore.  Oh well gotta run and do work please please please keep me in your prayers for everything!

Thanks guys and I’m still POSITIVE!!! Have a great day!

Meaning I don’t know where I am going or what’s going on with me right now. Have to get my things out of the house and into storage and I pretty much have no where to live….yeah the house….who cares right now my hubby isn’t concerned so why should I be but I do know I have to move. I don’t particularly like the state that I am in right now but nevertheless I’m still trying so hard to STAY POSITIVE!

What do you do when you have lost everything that was so precious? Who knows….but I’m still holding on to what I don’t know but holding onto something. So to all my buddies please just say a prayer for Angela! Thanks guys