angela1

Okay so it was a wonderful last few days for me and I will continue on this path. I’ve decided no one or nothing should interfere with your happiness. I am down another 3 lbs!YEAH and life is just great!

One thing I want to share with my buddies is this: No matter what you decide to do in life make sure it’s what you want to do. Alot of us sacrifice our happiness for others and in turn we are miserable.  That is what I did for the last six months try to make sure everyone else was happy…now it’s all about me…excuse me if I sound selfish but I have to think about me or no one else will.

Anyway today is going to be the best day of my life…I tell you THE SECRET is the key. If you haven’t read the book…I suggest you do and keep those positive thoughts!  Love you guys much!

Please welcome her with open arms. I wasn’t at  my best when she needed me, but show her all the love and support that I know you guys can. Thanks so very much!!!!

Okay so don’t ever think I don’t take my buddies advice. After calming myself down and thinking about the situation the first thing I decided to do was to have a heart to heart talk with hubby! By the way it went great; I told him how I really felt about the entire situation and the fact I have no desire to come to TEXAS! I was shocked but we had a real nice conversation. I did agree to let Dupree finish school without interruption from him; since it was our agreement. Our house is sold! YEAH YEAH YEAH!!! Just working out last minute details.

So I’ve been feeling really good these past few days; just working out things and reading my book THE SECRET…I’ve got to stop with those negative thoughts and feelings which i vowed to myself! No one or nothing is more important than me and after just taking a few days dealing with my emotions and setting things in order I feel great!

Now to my buddies thanks a million you guys are the BEST! I truly appreciate each and everyone of you wish I could name you but that is far too many. Finishing up paperwork and then going to read blogs and catch up on my buddies. Doing great weight wise have to get back to my routine, but I found out in any situation it is always best to be honest ! Have a great day buddies and I’m Staying Positive. This is going to be one of the best days of my life!!!!!! WHEWW!!!

Okay so first and foremost I am just tired so tired. Tired of the tears, the drama the mess. Of course it involves hubby…I finally told him I have no intention of joining him in TEXAS ever!!! I explained the way he just left wasn’t nice and the fact that I had to hear it from Dupree that he was moving…his response…Well it’s not like “Marquis” and I need you anyway we’ll be just fine.  What an insensitive @#$%^&^ and then to try and ask me for sex…yes I am being blunt and open you know I told him where to go…and sorry I have to let it out I am tired of holding everything in…tired of being so strong…who the hell does he think he is?  Anyway my brother in Ohio was livid he said to hell with him and his kid to send his kid with his mother or him to TEXAS immediately. Don’t let him talk to you like that sis…Now you know me all concerned because I know the little boy is going to suffer once he is there my hubby will just find someone to throw him off on so I figured just let him stay until school is out.

My brother says it is taking a toll on me and for me to keep letting my husband verbally abuse me is bad enough…my question for my dear sweet buddies: Should I send the kid with his dad? I know it;s my decision but two heads are better than one and I really have mixed emotions. Dupree has been a tremendous help to me with my nephew and he has been really good…I know my husband is terrible but should i make him suffer because of it…I already know I am going to worry about him after June and I will worry myself sick now if he leaves….yes it’s easier said than done but after all he is a child and because he has ignorant parents doesn’t mean he has to suffer.

My brother says and neither should I. I’m merely waiting to close on the house and then move into my own apartment and my brother said Dupree should not go with me. I explained that the little boy would miss almost a month and half of school my brother says if his dad doesnt care why should I. So confusing just need your honest input…thanks guys and I missed you all yesterday. I was in and out but too moody to respond on blogs.

Thanks guys you mean the world to me. Should Dupree stay or go? Would that really solve my problems with my hubby!!! My heart really goes out to Dupree today is his birthday and he was like mom what would I do without you…talk about guilt and having mixed emotions…ugh!!!

What was I thinking with the baby? Oh I thought of course that I was superwoman and if he cried I could stop and go back to exercising…wrong he requires too much attention.  So the 4:00 a.m. is not going to work but 6:00 a.m. he can be up and watch me. Man did it kill me this morning Tae-bo BOOTCAMP haven’t worked out in a minute but it did feel good.

I guess 3 times a day isn’t bad but I surely can’t wait to get rid of all the children they are getting in my way lol lol Actually they are preventing me from killing myself…so I’ll just work out two times after work and maybe walk on the treadmill for 20 minutes by June I am going to be hot do you hear me…scheduling a vacation to Jamaica with friends lol lol lol

So anyway have to run and get the kiddos ready have a great day buddies and STAY POSITIVE…we all can do this!!!!

Okay running late to church but wanted to post and encourage all of my buddies this Sunday morning…remember nothing is impossible to those that believe. In other words believe that you can (win this war over weight) and you can. Let’s stop with the I messed up and I give up and just go forward from this moment on.

I will be praying for us all…Have a great day buddies and remember:STAY POSITIVE!!!

Just imagine if we didn’t have weight issues; if we all were at goal…now come on think about it because I will be there soon…you like that feeling right…well make up in your mind once and for all that this time I;m going to do it! I was going over blogs and reading so many people who felt like giving up (and yes I;ve felt like that but never have) and then there were those who keep fallin by the way side (this only causes you to push your goal further away and makes it longer then you really want to give up) and yes I’ve fallin by the way side but I continue to get up and continue on this journey why? Because my health is important to me; because I didn’t like myself at 281 lbs and decided I wanted to change it! And last but certainly not least; I want to feel good about myself and look good and fit in nice new clothes. So with spring and summer fastly approaching us it’s time to mean what we say and say what we mean!

So let’s focus on the positive and let’s do this once and for all…I can assure you I will be a BUDDYSLIMMER for life but I will be talking about maintaining not losing the same 10 or 20 lbs over and over again. So let’s not only imagine let’s get busy and achieve our goals that we have set for ourselves! And being POSITIVE will help! We can do this!

WOW! It;s truly about time we have some nice weather and this will be the first time in a long time that I will be able to wear some nice new size 14’s yeah!!! By August should be at my goal 12. But I have so many new things dying to wear them and you know there will be more pictures!

Just wanted to say it’s so nice and beautiful and having a wonderful day! Today is my daughters 21st birthday wow can’t believe it but Thank God and I just left her job at the bank and they gave her a party and everyone was like you can’t be her mom you look so good! WOW nothing like a compliment to make your day! I can’t wait until monday to start my exercise regiment again going back to 4 times a day to get rid of these last 40 lbs I can do it by my Birthday August 13th so to Heather and SHANNA happy birthday again and Buddies nice weather, new clothes I am definitely STAYING POSITIVE!!

Well I had two full days of complete rest; of course I tried to exercise (what was I thinking…I was way too dizzy) so I put it off until Monday going to give myself a chance to fully recooperate! I drank so much herbal tea and ate a bag of ricola drops in the tea so good and soothing to the throat! I know I probably over did it with the robitussin but I felt as if my chest was going to burst….colds ugh I hate them!

Anyway I feel much better and actually going back to work. My girlfriend Macy is going to watch the kids for me as Dupree has no school today. Anyway I know I have alot of work to catch up on so I’ll be busy at work today…so I’m off to work…Have a great day buddies and STAY POSITIVE!

P.S. Debbie I voted more than 50 times for Roger lol lol lol

Okay so being sick is no fun at all; and usually I don’t get sick but I guess being so exhausted traveling non-stop your body just gives out! I got a lot of much needed rest and basically drank myself into a stuper of herbal tea and ricola drops. I had to take some robitussin for chest congestion because my chest hurt really bad.

I must admit I feel so much better today but still taking it easy! Okay on to bigger and better things like the BIGGEST LOSER! Someone please tell me how Kelly lost 13 lbs in one week - CAN YOU SAY AWESOME!! That is great that her and Ali are in the finale’. And sorry guys as bad as i want a girl to win…I would never in a million years vote for CRYBABY MARK…he gets on my nerves so my vote is for Roger.

Just a census to all you Biggest Loser fans who are you voting for Roger or Mark?

Okay I got alot of free times on my hands because I feel so much better going to run to the store get more juice then hang out on line all day lol lol. Have a great day buddies and STAY POSITIVE!!!!