angela1

First and foremost I would like to apologize to all my buddies for being out of touch (so to speak) but between court, counseling, child services, school etc. it’s been a really tough week for me.  I won’t be getting on at 4:30 a.m. anymore because my husband has a new shift 2:00 p.m. - 10:00 p.m. I’m not real happy about that because all of the child rearing will fall on me.  Well it took me a while to come to grips with everything, but now I have and I’ll have Marquis for the next 10 years as my responsibility.  So it was just a matter or readjusting and getting things in order.  Everyone says it’s the best thing for him and someone even had the audacity to tell me this is not the time to be selfish (you know me not concerned with what people say) which is why outside of buddyslim I don’t really share with anyone. Everyone always has a comment but no real solution.

Secondly, I can no longer go to CURVES  because of picking Marquis up after work and my husband doesn’t want him in aftercare (wasn’t real upset about this with all that CURVES drama) and besides; I have exercise equipment at home and my girlfriend told me to get HIPHOP ABS she said it’s dancing and fun and a real workout!  And that’s really what I need with my back problems (I’m sure it was stress related) I didn’t work out at all last week.  And I practically ate everything in site.  I didn’t know it was possible to gain that much weight in one week (which is why my weight ticker will stay the same until I am under 218) lol.  See I’m still laughing in spite of. Anyway I know what to do and how to do it so that doesn’t bother me at all.

I go to pick up Brittany from College on Thursday so I am looking forward to that.  She is such an encourager and she said mom it will work out.  You are a great mom and you will be rewarded for your love.  I love and miss her so much!!! Heather feels the same but is all in her own little world.

Anyway I’m normally off today (due to the holiday) but I’m going in to work. I had to miss a few days last week and I have to get caught up.  I’m finally back (somewhat) to normal. Getting custody of an 8 year old child does take a lot of readjusting; but it will work out in the end.  Thank you buddies so much for all your support.  Jessy and Rochelle I hope all is well with you two!

Bette Jo, Lori and Helen sorry I won’t be on in the early a.m. anymore but I’ll continue to check on you guys!  And to the rest of my wonderful buddies - Thank you for being simply who you are!!!!! Gotta run have a wonderful day!!! 

Well I finally had a bad day. Can’t say since I’ve started dieting that I had one, but it was a terrible one.  I posted a pix of my step-son Marquis (and even in that pix he had a busted lip and claimed he fell) that pix was taken earlier this year. I feel kind of bad because you always feel as if you could’ve done more.  His mother went to the school yesterday and told him to lie or he wouldn’t see her again. The boy was in such hysterics that they called my husband he had to leave work and go get him.  We immediately took him out of the school in NJ and he will be going to a new school in PA. 

 I have to take off work today got an emergency appointment with a counselor for him.  I still don’t know how to feel; how is she allowed to continue this abuse and what type of woman would do that to her own son.  She was reported to the police, children services are involved but she keeps getting to him. Well not anymore we wanted him to have his last few days to say good-bye to his friends, but she spoiled that.  He was an emotional wreck crying and screaming!  Am I really prepared for this!  Prepared or not I have to get prepared because he is definitely a fixture in my life until he is 18.

Well it’s a new day, and thank GOD because I literally ate everything but the kitchen sink…If I continue at this pace I’ll gain all 63+ pounds back. And I’m not an emotional eater at all; I just ate just because I could. My back is killing me and I’m beginning to think it is all stress related.    Thank God I don’t drink or I would have drank myself into a stuper.  Won’t be on too much today; will check in after I do my running around. After counselling I have to go to the Board of Education and get him enrolled in school in PA. I’m trying to be strong but the tears are falling even as I write this. I know my husband and I are his guardian angels as one buddy wrote but I just feel…….I really don’t know.

I’m going to try and see if I can squeeze in a massage somewhere while he is in counseling; I am so stressed………uh…………………….Please just keep us in your prayers and thank you again buddies for all your comments. 

I can’t go to the gym now because he gets out of school at 3:30 p.m. and after work I have to pick him up. Myhusband just got a new shift 2:00 p.m. - 10:00 p.m. so I’ll be raising him pratically by myself (breathe…………..) . What else can possible go wrong? I just need your prayers !

No, I’m not pregnant!  My step-son’s mother turned over full custody to us yesterday. Her boyfriend was abusing him physically, punching him in the face and knocking him down. Children services and the police said he was not allowed in the house. They made a surprise visit yesterday (and guess what) he was there.  Instead of making the abusive man leave she told my step-son who is 8 years old that he had to go live with his dad.

We have him every weekend and every summer so it’s not that; it’s just my baby has gone off to college and to have to start all over again with school and this and that. Please don’t think bad of me just expressing myself to my buddies that’s all. I love him dearly and my husband is so overjoyed because he no longer has to worry, but it’s as if my life has stopped.

The good thing is that he is no longer being abused, but his mom chose to stay in the situation and it’s ripping him apart.  Please guys just pray for me and my new family!

It’s alot when you are use to raising girls; but I’ll do my best to be a good mom to him. I have to find him a counselor because GOD only knows what other type of abuse he has suffered because of her.  And I have to find a new school in PA for him.  So I’ll be busy running around taking care of business.  At least he is in a better place, and he is safe now and my husband can stop worrying. 

Still excited…Heather will be over later to take photos’.  Will post later.  Thanks Guys you are the best!!! 

Okay so I lost -4 lbs this weekend!  Got my red star (and Debbie it is a big deal - SMILE) finally made the 60 lb club Sharky and my new red suit I just bought is too BIG! lol lol And I got my old/new buddy Wonderwoman. I say old/new because we have always supported one another and I just assumed she was my buddy until Icouldn’t send her a personal good morning! Anwyay so glad we are buddies. I have extra special love for all my buddies - they are the best!!!! And the HOTRODS WON AGAIN!!! Whew yeah go HOTRODS!!!! 

Anyway I ate two pieces of cheesecake. I’m taking the rest to work for my guys so I won’t over do it!  I weighed myself this morning and I’m still the same.  By the way that was my bad news the cheesecake. 

 BUT the greatest news of all……..I’m 218, 218, did you hear me 218- 18lbs and I’m in ONDERLAND - WOW I CAN’T REMEMBER BEING IN THE 100′S!  So I’ll be working extra hard at it!  So All good news I would say outside of the cheesecake, but hey we all deserve a treat or so sometime lol lol lol Just don’t over do it!!! Have a great day buddy!!!!

My daughter will be over tomorrow to take my photos; I asked my hubby he said baby please I don’t want to take pictures. So that is the delay, but wait until you guys see me! They’ll get posted Wednesday for sure!

Yeah some good news!!!! This has been a tough week but thank God the scale moved or I was going to go on a serious eating binge lol Hey Betty Jo, Lori and Helen (where are my early morning buddies - I had no one to talk to this morning)! Oh well I’m catching up on blogs since I wasn’t on much yesterday and so glad it was a positive one!  I really love this site and I love everyone on this site Buddy or not! lol Let’s continue to lose weight and be a support to each other!  Off to me dreaded treadmill! Today is my cheat day ( you gotta have one lol) so I’m going to make a cheesecake mmmmmmmmmm….I’ll try to eat one slice (yeah right) maybe two!  Have a great weekend!

Well people are really sensitive. I check my buddy list every two months and if you haven’t been on or show no interest then I delete you.  One of my buddies didn’t take to kind to it and left this message for me: ( I will not reveal a name because it really doesn’t matter and this site is to encourage not to cause trouble and my buddy TONI will definitely want to hurt her lol) anyway brace yourself here it is:

“Angela you are a selfish PIG, you think Buddyslim is all about you!  You never answer any blogs but your own and I’m tired of seeing your face! I don’t care that you don’t want me as a buddy it’s better off without you!  I hope you gain all your weight back. Have a nice day PIG!!!”

Of course I didn’t answer and simply deleted the message. (But in defense of myself and I really don’t have too; but I will)

SP - You are dead wrong!! I am on here everday except Sunday (that is totally God’s day) and I have a core group of buddies that I talk with everyday.  Of course I am selfish in that I answer all of my buddies blogs first and then others.  Buddy slim is about all of us;not just me.  Don’t hate me because I am a support to people and I took the time to get to know people. I also send out personal messages (not post) personal messages to a few of my buddies each and every morning! Funny how you never responded to the 10 that I sent you. I’m sorry you didn’t take the time to get to know anyone but decided to bash me; its okay!  This site is wonderful and there are wonderful people here.  I take what you said with a grain of salt. You haven’t been on since August 4th and unfortunately I have too many buddies that need my support every day ;not every few months. I’m sorry you took so harsh to me deleting you, but I stand on what I did.  

As for you calling me a PIG; at 400+ pounds that is not a word that should come out of your mouth at all!  So you have a nice day!

Well buddies that’s it in a nutshell. I will be off for a few days until Saturdays weigh-in and this person did not cause it; I just have alot of things I need to take care of. Have a wonderful day! And to SP - SORRY; I HAD TO DELETE YOU!!!!