It’s time to face reality……
Okay, right off the back……I have gained 20 lbs!!! What are you kidding me? Maybe the scale is broken; NO I have neglected myself and gotten so caught up in my husbands drama. Anyway not changing my weight tracker because this is the last day of that. I will be in onederland by February end of subject. Marquis wants to go back and live with his mother. He is use to doing whatever he wants and not use to our discipline and rules. My husband is doing everything including giving him what he wants just to get him to stay. Children Services by the way dropped the charges against the mothers boyfriend because they say there wasn’t sufficient evidence and due to the fact they say Marquis changed his story after the mom left the school. Personally buddies I HAVE SIMPLY HAD ENOUGH! My husband and I are arguing everyday and it’s sad, but I am not saying a word…….my purpose is finished. I did what I could do and now it’s in GOD’s hands. I am not going to bribe some kid into liking our home better than his mom’s just to get him to stay. So bottom line; my husband can do what he wants. The court date is Decemeber 10th and we’ll know then whether we can keep him permanently or not. His mother can retain custody as children services has dropped all charges. HOW’s your day. My goal now is me, me and me. I’m not blaming anyone for the 20 lb gain it was me. I ate and didn’t exercise well now it’s CURVES at 6:30 a.m. I found out that they open early and I need it! HE can get his own son dressed for school in the morning and feed him etc. I need to take care of me now! Sorry if I sound Selfish ……oh well!
I’m not down about the 20lbs it was just a total shocker! But that’s what happens when you eat junk and don;t exercise for 27 days lol. She I have a sense of humor in it all, but seriously I’m only laughing to keep from crying. Sorry I haven’t been a good buddy to you guys but you see what I’ve been dealing with! I can’t wait until December 10th to see what the future holds for my life. Sad my life is on hold until the court makes a ruling. Thanks buddies for everything and don’t worry those 20lbs will be gone by the beginning of the year GUARANTEED!!!!!!!
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Wow Angela, I am sorry to see what you are going through. I will pray for you and your family. I know you will get the weight back off because you are strong and committed….
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Im not going to judge you just want to hug you! Hope everything works out for the best whatever that may be! Dont beat yourself up on the gain, it happens to us all once in a while! (((((hugs)))))
Everything’s gonna be alright!
Good for you for making yourself number 1. I wish there were magic words to make everything better but I haven’t found those yet. I have been a long time reader of your blogs and this has really been tough on you. I pray that it will improve for everyone in your family. Keep fighting because when we give up is when we truly fail. Much love~Mary
Awww, Angela *Big Hugg* You have been going thru so much, I admire your strength, girl! Please know you are in my prayers, Love you! You can do it!
Hi Angela:
I seems like we walk the same paths in life sometimes. So I know what you are going through. As far as his son is concerned, the only thing you have control of is what ever effects you. I was so glad to hear that you are taking back your control over yourself! HUGE STEP!! He can get up and take care of his son. I know it is hard when you love them so much, but you must love yourself also! Stay strong, and My prayers are with you.
Mary
I’m sorry to hear about the gain. It does sound like it’s temporary though so that is great. You can do it. You have to take care of you. It’s not selfish at all. Good luck!
You know I am praying for you and your family. Everything will turn out for the best just leave it all in GODS hands. We love you and are here to support you.
Hey its time you get selfish and take care of YOU.
I’m not worried about you getting the weight off.
I know once you set your mind to it thats all it takes. Okay some working out and eating right too but you know what I mean.
Sorry to hear about all your stress. Hopefully that will be relieved soon and it sounds like it will be.
You take care of YOU Angela the rest is out of your hands.
Its great that you’ll take advantage of Curves early morning workouts. Sounds perfect.
Hugs to you
Lori
ps you are always a good buddy even when life gets in the way
I personally don’t think you are being selfish. Marquis has a mother and a father who made him and are responsible for him. You are a stepmom and you shouldn’t have all that responsibility on you if you don’t want it. Sure you can help your husband and be supportive but you can also have limits too. I’ve watched enough Dr. Phil’s to know that it’s the real mom and dad’s of a child that should take on the bigger roles. My husband is a step dad to my son and he does his best. But, in the end, my son is my son and I have the overall last word and if I need extra support, I call on my husband. It’s not like your saying you are checking out completely and it’s all on your husband. You are taking a stand and I admire that. You might have more arguments to come until a real good solution gets figured out but just keep hanging in there and let God guide you to what’s right.
You’ll loose that 20 pounds again, girl. =) I know you can do it - I think many of us got messed up over the holidays LOL~ Oh well, keep up the good work. You’ve been through alot, I can tell that you’re a strong person and you’ve got what it takes. You’re right, it’s time to concentrate on you. Have a wonderful day! =)
I agree with Wonder Woman, i don’t think you are being slefish at all!!! you did your share and more!!! Plus it saddens me to see that this is having such a negative affect on your marriage becuase I always thought that was one of the greatest things you had!! Not that that defined you, but you could feel the love when you spoke about your husband and he seemed pretty supportive! Not that he isn’t, just seems like he isn’t thinking of you like he used to, btu hey I am an insider. i hate that you are going thru so much and my life is all crazy I can’t really eb there for you like I want to, btu just know you and your are always in my thoughts and prayers, and if oyu need me, I AM HERE!!!! ALWAYS!!! Come to Texas, take a break!!! ha ha, you can help me set up house!! We are finally staying at the new house and moving things gradually!! Gotta get all the large stuff out of the way for the movers to then come in and move the big furniture!!!!
Ont he 20 pounds, girl it is the holidays and you are going thru alot. I knwo that probably sounds like an excuse, btu I knwo I have really relaxed a bit also, and I am not going to beat myself up about it one bit. i have my whole life to stress baout food and weight and just not gonna do it right now!!!
LOVE YA!!!!!!!!!!! BIG HUGS!!!!!!!!!!!
Angeal, things will work out for you, and in a sense they have already! God is guiding you to do your thing and to take care of you! How many years have you been taking care of YOUR babies! Its time others take care of their own now too! You are awesome, you can lose the 20 plus some! I know it and you know it too! Don’t delay, no time like the persent, dec 10th will come and you will be a few lbs lighter! Come on you can do it! Angie
*Angela! oops typo…..hee hee have a great day! Angie
