Please forgive me buddies!!!

First and foremost I would like to apologize to all my buddies for being out of touch (so to speak) but between court, counseling, child services, school etc. it’s been a really tough week for me.  I won’t be getting on at 4:30 a.m. anymore because my husband has a new shift 2:00 p.m. - 10:00 p.m. I’m not real happy about that because all of the child rearing will fall on me.  Well it took me a while to come to grips with everything, but now I have and I’ll have Marquis for the next 10 years as my responsibility.  So it was just a matter or readjusting and getting things in order.  Everyone says it’s the best thing for him and someone even had the audacity to tell me this is not the time to be selfish (you know me not concerned with what people say) which is why outside of buddyslim I don’t really share with anyone. Everyone always has a comment but no real solution.

Secondly, I can no longer go to CURVES  because of picking Marquis up after work and my husband doesn’t want him in aftercare (wasn’t real upset about this with all that CURVES drama) and besides; I have exercise equipment at home and my girlfriend told me to get HIPHOP ABS she said it’s dancing and fun and a real workout!  And that’s really what I need with my back problems (I’m sure it was stress related) I didn’t work out at all last week.  And I practically ate everything in site.  I didn’t know it was possible to gain that much weight in one week (which is why my weight ticker will stay the same until I am under 218) lol.  See I’m still laughing in spite of. Anyway I know what to do and how to do it so that doesn’t bother me at all.

I go to pick up Brittany from College on Thursday so I am looking forward to that.  She is such an encourager and she said mom it will work out.  You are a great mom and you will be rewarded for your love.  I love and miss her so much!!! Heather feels the same but is all in her own little world.

Anyway I’m normally off today (due to the holiday) but I’m going in to work. I had to miss a few days last week and I have to get caught up.  I’m finally back (somewhat) to normal. Getting custody of an 8 year old child does take a lot of readjusting; but it will work out in the end.  Thank you buddies so much for all your support.  Jessy and Rochelle I hope all is well with you two!

Bette Jo, Lori and Helen sorry I won’t be on in the early a.m. anymore but I’ll continue to check on you guys!  And to the rest of my wonderful buddies - Thank you for being simply who you are!!!!! Gotta run have a wonderful day!!! 

9 Comments so far

  1. squiggly @ November 12th, 2007

    I think you are a great person!! There’s a lot of people who would not have done the same. Good luck with everything and thank you for sharing!! May God bless you and your family!!!

  2. twintluv99 @ November 12th, 2007

    Girl, your daughter is right, you are a great person and it will work out. Whoever told you not to be selfish is just flat out wrong. Youa re so not selfish and I don’t knwo why people feel they can just say whatever to you on here, but I knwo they do, cuz they do it to me too!! Whatever, as the song says, SHAKE THEM HATERS OFF!!!! We love ya!!!

  3. jessy @ November 12th, 2007

    Hey whoever said u r selfish…obviously has no idea who or wt u r…so lets just forgive her ignorance….but u know u r a wonderful soul…and i have no doubt u r gonna be a fantastic mum to Marquis….way to go lady!So now u gonna be doing hiphop?kool…i wish i can see that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!have fun anyways…will pray for u!

  4. tashadiekan77 @ November 12th, 2007

    I know it must be hard to adjust to all that you are going through. We understand that things change and you can’t always be on here. That is ok. Don’t feel gulity for that. It is life and it changes all the time. We are always going to be here for you no matter what. Nver give up on YOU though! You have come so far and I am really very proud of you.

  5. kamaperry @ November 12th, 2007

    I’m so sorry, I know that will be an adjustment, but we do understand, so don’t worry about us. We love you and will be here for you when you can be on! You are doing great, don’t ever forget that!

  6. arewethereyet @ November 12th, 2007

    I call BS (and not buddy slim) on whomever told you it wasn’t the time to be selfish. Seriously, the way things are right now you are going to be pulled in all sorts of directions. If you don’t declare some selfish me time, you’ll never get it. Believe me, everyone will be better off if you take some of it! Big hugs, Ellen

  7. WonderWoman @ November 12th, 2007

    Girl, you are not selfish. You are human and being in a mom role is hard work. Especially when you thought you were through raising any more. It’s a very human response. I feel overwhelmed at times with my own kids so if someone told me I had to take on another I think I would break down too. This isn’t some Lifetime movie where everyone hugs in the end and things are good to go. This is real life with real emotion. No one knows what it’s like until they are in the same boat. Just keep working it girl. This hard time will one day be just a memory.

  8. iodine1960 @ November 12th, 2007

    I am glad that you are doing better. I was worried about you. I know that you want what is best for Marquis, but I can also understand how changing your whole routine could send you to the fridge and cupboards. I know that you will get back on track. I am and always will be here for you. Its ok that you wont be on in the A.M. I will just look for you in the afternoon. I get on then too…Take care and I am sending you a big {{{HUG}}}

  9. sangeletic @ November 12th, 2007

    Ok i can see you and Marquis bonding and doing Hip Hop dances together! he is gonna think your such a cool mom! he will think of you as a mom to him too because you are HIS MOM NOW! You are gonna do awesome, and hey this will be the son you always wanted! Everyone needs a little boy at one time or another, and if you weren’t blessed with a flesh and blood son, well this is even better because DANG he looks just like your HUBBY! Girl they look like two peas in a pod1 this will strenghten your marriage beyond words too! Angela you are awesome! you will be back on track and into a steady routine by DECEMBER! Give it some time, nothing happens overnight! take care of YOU too! Angie

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